I just wrote the ending to an 8-volume Interrogation series, six minutes ago. I started writing it on Dec 22, beginning the inevitable process that I call “losing your mind,” a literary disease that I named referring to losing your core beliefs. “Losing your mind” happens during the equivalent of the fourth quarter of writing a book. The stretch run. The last super-set. The finish line is within sight. Then, the loss of mind creeps in. The first symptom is the inner voice that urges you to quit. Pack it in. Put an end to it, stick a cover on it, and put it online and in bookstores. Fatigue starts to set in and as it builds up, the mind starts losing itself. More voices: “That’s enough. Don’t want to do any more. ‘F’ it. Christmas is coming up. It’s good enough as is.” Then the fight starts.
The sane voice interrupts and tells you the truth: “The work is not finished. There’s more work to do. If you quit now, it’s a half-assed job.” All of a sudden, the explosion of the inner domestic – cognitive dissonance. Two voices competing for air time, fighting it out to be heard, to be taken seriously, and fighting like hell for full control of the mind. Neither voice is content with sharing your mind. Each voice wants total control. One voice pushes you to cross the finish line. The other voice lies, trying to convince you that you’ve already crossed it when in fact you haven’t.
The voice you listen to determines which line you cross and which line you don’t. The voice you listen to determines how far you go. The voice you listen to determines what place you end up in – first or dead last. Every day since Dec. 22 was a mind game that turned into a full-fledged mental bloodbath – quit or not quit. Work through the Holiday season or take a holiday.
The publishing business is hell. It’s a daily fight not to lose everything you’ve invested. No one will send you a salary just for showing up. The government won’t subsidize you with free grants. You have to invest all of it. Then you have to fight like hell every day to survive. So, when the process of “losing your mind” sets in, you have a decision to make – lose everything or make it happen. That’s the call you have to make and live with.
On another note, today is January 1, 2014. New Year’s day. I never have and never will make a New Year’s resolution but I have made up my mind to get back to my workout music roots. I’m cleaning up my gym’s music and my iPOD. I’ve selected finalists for the 365-24-7 radio station that will be played at X Fitness. My own workout iPOD is going through a transformation – blast from the past. I’ve decided to stick to my top 100 for the first 100 days of 2014. Here’s one of my top 100 that I dusted off – Chain Lightning by .38 Special.
“It’s chain lightnin’, too hot to fight
Hot on the heels of a Saturday night
Chain lightnin’, out of control
Straight to the heart and down to your soul”
May 2014 bring you #peace #blessings #love. And most of all, may it bring you fitness – physically, intellectually, emotionally, and spiritually.
The link to Chain Lightning video is after my signature. #peace #keeplifting
Gino Arcaro M.Ed., B.Sc., NCCP Level 3
Head coach – Niagara X-men football
Owner – X Fitness Inc.
Gino Arcaro is a widely published author. His website, blog, Youtube channel, and list of books are at: www.ginoarcaro.com His books include: 4th & hell: seasons 1-5, Soul of a Lifter, SWAT Offense, SWAT Defense, X Fitness Workout System. He also has written 20 editions of 6 law enforcement academic textbooks. And a new 8-volume interrogation book series, soon to be released.